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Don't tell me what to do because u are not me. I will say...... all the things I want to tell her in my heart.... she will know it.... I have already cried silently, is that what I can't even do when I am feeling so sad? You are not me, u don't know how much love she have given me.  When I was young and my parents doesn't like me, only she is by my side. Only she consoled me. She is the only adult I felt loved from.  I love you, ah ma~~ I know your body is slowly shutting down already, I really miss you!!!  I know you are suffering so much now, sometimes I know you are breathless but you are still holding on.  Ah ma, you will always hold a big place in my heart...  Thank you for taking care of me and love me. I love you too. 

Today ah ma will be discharged from hospital to home hospice.  我很怕。。。 怕来不及见阿嫲的最后一面。。 Been secretly crying at night whenever I think of her.  I miss her🧓 I ❤️🧓 Her weight now is 33kg. 我很想你 我爱你

I decided to take leave today to be with ah ma at my own pace.  Shoan and sis also took leave.  I bought my yakun for ah ma as promised but by the time we reached is already 10.30am because the yakun at oasis terrace was closed for reno, so we went waterway point yakun to dao bao.  However I don't see her at her bed, so Shaon went to ask the nurse. They said she went for ultrasound scan. I doubt the yakun can wait so long. We finally get to see her at around 1pm. She only had a bit of coffee because Daenah kept the coffee in the thermal flask. Visited her awhile and left at 2pm as the nurse said only 2 pax and visiting hours is about to over. 2pm. 

I visited ah ma at Yishun Community Hospital. Very sad and heartache to see her so weak and frail. Feel like crying. They said everyone had visited her except me and sis and she was waiting for someone. When I heard that from my father, I tell myself I need to go visit her.  Shoan brought me there at 12pm as they said strictly only allowed to visit during visiting hours. I told him I will go back myself because if he needs to go work and the latest I need to leave if he sends me back is 12.40pm. I think its too short time for me to see ah ma. After visiting, I went home.  Evening time I saw the group message saying that the visiting restrictions are lifted. Any pax any time also can go. I don't feel good and think that something bad might have happened. I called my father to ask, he said he is not too sure but is going to the hospital to ask the doc.  I felt something bad happening, so I cried at the sofa. Shoan asked if I want to visit ah ma at the hospital now. I said y...